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Moving!

The exciting news in my life right now is that this week we closed escrow on a new house, and moved into it this weekend!  Wow!  It has been an exhausting exciting joyful hardworking friend-full weekend! We are full of love and joy at our new house, and excited to be manifesting our vision of living with community through the cottage in the back which we will be renting out to our friend Karen who we love a lot! Joy!  And in the two days here we had many friends drop by and help unpack and bring us cheer — a special cheer to Leila and Matt for first night burritos, wine, fun, and unpacking. And while walking out for coffee we ran into our friend Octavian.  And while standing out the front door my old freshman roommate walked by on his way home.  I love the city and how full of community and friendship it is.  Our new neighbor baked us a tray of fresh biscotti.  Yah!

I really find this point interesting though — it seems to me that the culturally dominant view in America of urban living is that cities are full of strangers and that the crush of human density is full of confrontation and alienation.  The experience I’ve found in SF is that the urban center is full of friends and contact and connection.  Being out of the car and primarily walking and using public transit we are routinely encountering friends on the street, or the BART, or in cafe’s etc.  There is a deep joy in this, and a sense of belonging and community that comes from constantly unexpectedly encountering friends.  I really do feel that this is mostly the result of not driving and moving around in real human space.  It allows interaction to occur.  It creates the opportunity to see who you are walking past and stop and talk and change direction of motion to go on a new adventure with the friend you just encountered.  All the daily contact makes everyone, even the strangers, more open to talk to and create some brief connection in passing….

So, its really about the car — that seems to me to be the primary force of alienation and separation in our world today. The urban density enables one to move through life without the car being the primary means, and opens one up to connection, community, and the unexpected adventure.  The car still has its use — we still have our cars too — but that use is limited and occasional.

That is all I can write this week — I’m in motion moving.

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The Queen of Hearts

I had one of those magical moments recently where the universe presents a gift unexpectedly.  I had just spent the morning dancing at the Sunday morning Ecstatic Dance in Oakland, which is a fantastically joyful place to explore and celebrate motion and dance with a supportive and amazing community. Ecstatic Dance is one of those special places where magical moments and special experiences happen frequently. The best I can explain is that with all the dance and joy, it is easy to have ones heart open to the unexpected.  That, and it attracts a special community that is rich in gifts for the world.

Walking off the dance floor with a friend we found a card left behind by some other dancer.  It was the Queen of Hearts.  Looking at it my heart soared with joy because it is one of the best articulations I’ve encountered for a useful insight into life.  The Queen of Hearts is two faced, and so it is critical to read all the text on the card as the magic is in the difference between the two statements.

I could try to describe all the thoughts the card triggers for me, but I’ll mostly let it speak for itself.  The one thought I want to share is that the way the card is presented eloquently captures the way that we are dynamic feedback systems.  While we like to think in logical causal chains (X causes Y, fun leads to love, etc) that is not how we function. A dynamic feedback system is not casual, but is in constant balance/tension with itself.  It is important to look at what energy or emotion is being feed into the system and think about how it affects the dynamic.

I’ve recently been showing this card to a number of friends who have come to me with sad hearts as they contemplate separating from their spouses (really, its been a rush of separations lately!)  A pattern I see repeating in many of these situations is that once a relationship has fallen on hard times and the couple stops having fun together, the love slowly fades. The challenge is that many couples then focus on “the problem” or “what is wrong” with the relationship.  This rarely seems to help as they just get locked into an antagonistic battle trying to push each other towards different “solutions.”

Rather, the most successful couples I’ve seen focus on celebrating what works for them. They focus on the joy they can share, and the fun they can have, and the success each has.  They celebrate their partners’ joy, just for the pleasure of seeing each other joyful.  It seems that profound changes can come, not by fixing something, but by changing the dialog.  If the energy going into the relationship can shift towards love and fun, the dynamic will start changing and feedback on itself in a positive direction.

So, to whoever made this Queen of Hearts and left it at Ecstatic Dance — a BIG hearty THANK YOU.  Its been a gift that I keep sharing, because there is some much of value in this one simple piece of paper.

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Melt Your Heart!

Last weekend, Claire and I went to John Friend’s “Melt Your Heart” yoga workshop. John is the founder of the Anusara style of yoga, which offers a unique blend of bio-mechanical alignment principles with heart centered tantric philosophy. Over the years I’ve come to appreciate how the alignment principles that are taught in Anusara are powerful tools for ones psyche, spiritual, and emotional life.  Yet what is interesting is that the principles are primarily taught as physical alignment while practicing poses on the yoga mat.  As touched on in an earlier post (“The Brain is For Motion“) our bodies and minds and hearts are not really separable into distinct systems. We think with our bodies. We feel emotions with our bodies. So, if we want to learn more about how to manage our thoughts and emotions, we can start by learning how to manage and control our bodies.

The first principle of Anusara Yoga is to open to grace — to soften and to melt your heart all while holding a strenuous and challenging pose. This is a great thing to learn physically — how to be soft and fully engaged at the same time. At first it is very challenging — our naturally tendency is to tighten and push harder when trying to achieve a goal, and to become disengaged when softening.  This dual action is reflected in the other alignment principles — such as hugging towards our midline while also expanding outwards with organic energy. The great thing about learning these principles physically is that when you do find the balance point you can feel it and it is an amazing experience!  Suddenly, for a moment, a pose you have been struggling with can become easy and peaceful and your body expands unexpectedly deeply and your heart fills with joy!  It’s a rush!

And that is the magic of learning through the body — it gives you physical feedback. Early on I thought I understood the principles but I was still straining too hard and not able to feel the balance point.  I ended up injuring myself a few times from the over-exertion and learned from those experiences how to soften and find the awareness of the balance point.  We get similar pain/injury feedback when we are out of alignment emotionally, but it is more difficult to recognize at first (largely because it is easy to mistakenly attribute emotional injury to external causes — like other people). The physical practice makes it obvious that we are the only ones capable of finding the balance in our bodies — no one else was involved in the moments when I injured myself — it was all me.  As I practice finding the balance point between opposing forces in my body and relaxing into the effort, I find that I recognize more and more places in my social, emotional, and intellectual life where the same lessons apply.  Once again, it turns out that our emotional balance is fully under our own control, and follows the same principles of alignment as apply to our bodies.

If you have not yet practiced with an Anusara teacher, I can highly recommend it.  The lessons offered are deep and have the ability to transform your life in ways deeper than the simple physical changes that come with the practice of physical poses.  Below are links to some of my favorite teachers — each is magical in their own way and has a unique gift to offer their students.  There are many other excellent teachers and yoga styles out there too, so go explore them all!

Kenny Graham – http://www.kgyoga.com/

Laura Christensen – http://www.laurachristensen.com/

Stacey Rosenberg – http://www.namastacey.com/

Abby Tucker – http://yogabohemian.com/home.html

And, of course, the founder of it all:

John Friend – http://www.anusara.com/

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The Brain is for Motion!

My primary interest in robotics is modeling and exploring human intelligence. As I started on my study of Artificial Intelligence in the early 90’s, I decided that a box on a table couldn’t be intelligent because it is disconnected from physical reality. One can define a tree as a particular type of plant, or list its qualities such as shade production and carbon filtering, or one can list its uses such as lumbar and edible nuts. But all these qualities require their own further definition.  At the end of the day, this is just symbol manipulation and is ungrounded from meaning.  Early attempts at AI tried to build meaning from complex semantic dictionaries and failed to produce intelligence. Those approaches are used today for automated parsing of natural text, but the only “intelligence” they show is in the logic implicit in the complex set of relationships built into the symbol definitions.  To bring shared meaning to the symbols we use, it helps to physically connect them to the shared reality we experience.  If you want to know what a tree is, you have to be embodied in the world — you have to be able to hug it.

Hugging trees might sound like a silly basis for intelligence, but it stems from the basic cycle of autonomy: perception — thought — action.  The classic approach to AI that focuses on symbolic manipulation fails because it only expresses “thought.”  Connecting to the external shared reality through perception and action gives thought meaning.

We can define living beings by our ability to act — to create change in the world or ourselves. Stones do not act — they react — they are passive.  In contrast, all living things perform actions in some way.  We can easily see these actions in the higher mammals, but even the simplest bacteria or plant creates action.  Plants grow and change, transport fluids, mature and die.  These are all actions. Plants’ capabilities of perception and thought are more limited than ours — but not non-existent.  Consider the Venus Fly-Trap for perception and trivial decision making in a plant.

Just like thought by itself does not get one far in life, action on its own without perception or thought is not very functional.  Early industrial machines are a great example of action without perception — they do one thing very well and will keep doing it even to the point of destruction if the environment changes.  Charlie Chaplin perfectly captured the essence of action without perception or thought in his movie “Modern Times,” where he depicts an automated Feeding Machine:

And this Ketchup Dispensing Robot is an excellent example of a modern robotic system which lacks perception:

A theory held by many researchers is that the primary purpose of the brain is to control motion.  At first this might seem odd — the motor cortex is only a small part of the brain, and there are so many other functional aspects that don’t seem related.  But, as you can see from the above discussion, perception and thought are prerequisites for intentional motion. When we build autonomous robotic systems we find that simple motor controllers are not enough.  To move in the real dynamic world (not just a lab or factory) we need to sense and understand the environment we are moving through.  We need sensors — eyes, ears, noses, etc. But just sticking a camera on a robot is not enough either — that just gives you a bunch of colored dots. Interpreting that data might start by reconstructing a 3D scene from those dots — but even that is not enough.  What is the scene?  What dangers lie around you?  What opportunities?  Where should you move?  What might be tasty and good for you if you ate it?  What might eat you?  Every act we do, from eating to talking and emailing requires an intentionally coordinated set of motions.  In every moment, even when laying on the bed thinking, we have to choose from the infinite set of possible actions which of those actions we will manifest. That is what our brain does.  All the complex decisions, desires, motivations, social norms, emotions, habits, and other “higher level function” boil down to the simple question of deciding how our physical body will interact with the physical world. It all ends up being about motion.

And so my approach to understanding human intelligence is to start by understanding how we move.  Evolution is economical in reusing systems, so it seems fitting that the processes that developed to control simple physical motion get replicated and reused in more and more complex ways in order to orchestrate more complex and abstract forms and intentions behind our motion.  And this is what we find in the makeup of the brain:

Finally, in the most complex brains, a large portion of the cortical mantle, called the associational cortex, is devoted to generating and processing events that are not directly related to sensory inputs or motor outputs. Remarkably, the cortical modules in the associational areas are not fundamentally different from the sensory or motor cortical areas, an indication that local computation in cortical modules is quite similar. [Gyorgy Buzsaki, “Rhythms of the Brain” 2006, p 46.]

What I find really fascinating is that this connection between motion and our intellect and emotion goes even deeper than just reused cortical modules.  In fact, it is hard to really separate the brain from the body — as one explores physical healing (massage, energy work, etc) it is common to find that specific memories of emotional trauma are carried in the body for years.  There are many disciplines (motion therapy, Somatics, etc) that study the interplay of how the physical body carriers and holds thought and emotion patterns, and how to shift them. The interplay of the body and emotion and thought is a rich topic that we will be exploring here for a while.  For now, the key thought is that while we love and enjoy all the fancy experiences we can have with our brains —  the brain was made for motion.

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